I'm breakin...

I'm breaking up with brent. I can't live a lie anymore. I have no feelings for him other than as a friend. It's better I do it now than later. I had no clue he was actually getting this attached. His friend wrote something in our school newspaper about us, although he didn't use our names."With all of these translations of the word love given to us as children we all grow up with different ideas about what love really is. A friend of mine says that he loves everyone he goes out with, he says it to them...but when asked how many people he really LOVED he says only 2, one in the first 2 weeks of going out and the girl he is with now."He LOVES me. I need to get out of this now before he gets even more into it, and before he thinks I'm even more into it. He won't be as hurt if I'm truthful now. I feel so awful. I cried about it. And I'm crying now about it. I feel like such a filthy lying bitch. What's worse is I'm liking someone I should not like. Yes, that's right. Marc. x battlexscars x: whats wrong with you!midway driveby: he's nice to me, and we're together a lot, and he's like a cancerous growth he's just kinda grown on me.midway driveby: and I can't help it.x battlexscars x: eemidway driveby: and I can't cut it off b/c it's cancer it's still there.midway driveby: IT WON'T GO AWAYmidway driveby: AND THE CANCER LIKES MEx battlexscars x: its a 212 lb growing on your fucking side!x battlexscars x: FUCKING LEACH!x battlexscars x: >:Dmidway driveby: the cancer likes me.midway driveby: and that makes it grow even more.midway driveby: and it won't fucking stop.x battlexscars x: cut it off at the source.midway driveby: even when I say FUCK YOU CANCER DON'T FUCKING GROW ON MEx battlexscars x: and hell say. what, im no cancer.x battlexscars x: and you sayx battlexscars x: YOU FUCKING LEACHx battlexscars x: wHERE THE FUCK IS MY SALTEven that didn't help. Usually our little convos about surreal situations like that helps me in some way. It just makes me know I shouldn't like him, but I can't really help it. I'm giving him a ride home again tomorrow. I gave him a ride home today, along w/ samantha beanie. She's so little it makes me feel big. OMG. I'm shrinking. I'm a 1/2 shorter than I was, however, MY FEET GREW AN ENTIRE SIZE. I told kenny and later he said "goodnight bigfoot" and logged off. MY mom and I were looking at my feet today and we came to the conclusion that my feet remind us of ET. I just look at my feet and I like ET. I asked my mom and she said she sees the similarities. GAH. Goodnight.