Oh god. B...

Oh god. Brent called me. I don't know what to do. He asked why I was scared of him. He asked what was up with Derek. I didn't know what to say. I kinda stammered out a response. He sounded like he was going to cry. That made me cry. I resorted to talking to my mom. After I explained the whole story to her, she looked at me with this blank stare and said "Man, I wish I had your problem when I was in high school!" She brought some things into light that I had been thinking about, and she said that she was going to think about it and help me out tonight after dinner, after she had time to think about it. I think heatherr told him that I like derek. He asked me about him, and I don't think I put that in my journal entry along with being nervous about him. I think I'm going to tell brent that I just want to be friends. I thought I liked him, but I think it was one of those buddy-buddy type loves and not a b/f-g/f type love. I mean I'd love to be buddies with him and hang out with him and stuff, but, yeah....*sigh*I may be talking to Mr. Keck's class about the importance of safety glasses. Today, I was using the scroll saw, and the speed was on 300rpms, and all of a sudden it stopped. I asked Kyle what to think, and he said he didn't know. I asked Mr. Wade, and he said leave it on and it'll start working again. Well, it came back on and broke the blade, so I replaced the blade. After I replaced the blade, I made sure the speed was on 300, and I cut about 2 more inches and it stopped again, so I waited for it to come back on again, and it came back on at about 5500 rpms and it not only shattered the blade, but the clasps both broke and peices of those flew. One of the pieces of the blade shot up and hit me in the safety glasses. So....I may be talking to Keck's class about safety glasses. I need to talk to heatherr. She said she and Derek were talking about me in their english class. I was too busy reading the note that Brent wrote me to pay much attention to her. I wanna know what they saiddd....She said that he said that I need anger managment, but that's it. I think I may break up with brent, and ask Derek to prom. He'd look so cute in a tux. He looks adorable in official dress. He's so cute. *sigh* Supper time!